i hate being a girl… why? well for starters when it comes to guys some or most girls after having sex or fooling around with a guy start to get attached.. that’s the reason i hate most about being a girl.. i wish there was some awesome way that every time i had sex with a guy i wouldn’t care and just move on, but no it’s never that easy for me. right now i think i’m getting to be this way because i desperately want a boyfriend. it sounds sad i know but it’s what i really want right now, and all the guys i want don’t want relationships, and just want sex, and all the guys that want me i don’t want them (or at least most of them). i just have no idea what to do anymore, i hate it. the only reason i bring this up is because 2 weeks ago i went on a party bus with a bunch of people i didn’t know and four people i did know. well there was a really hot talk there and he was talking to me and we were hitting it off pretty well and we were flirting with each other! but later i found out he had a girlfriend so i talked to him about it and he want off saying how ho doesn’t even know if there together half the time and blah blah blah. he was telling me how hot i was and he kept joking around with me. after we got back i had to stay over at his house because i couldn’t drive home and he was sitting next to me and he wanted me to go to bed with him.. there was no way in hell i was going to go to bed with him if he had a girlfriend.. so a few days ago i found him on facebook and added him, a few hours later he messaged me on there and was asking me how i was doing and what i’ve been up to, i told him and i asked the same. when he send me a message back he told me him and his girlfriend just broke up. then yesterday i get a text from a friend asking me if i wanted to go see a movie with her and all the guys that ever on the party bus, so he was there. i figured at that point if i went over there something would happen between me and him and kind of second guessed it but did it anyway. it was a pretty awesome night we saw that new Harold and Kumar movie, and played drinking games. after the movie Sara told me that lance and his girlfriend broke up and if i was looking to hook up go for it, but if i wanted a boyfriend i probably shouldn’t. i wasn’t planning on doing anything with him but.. i guess somethings just lead to other things. i don’t know i just feel stupid now because i knew what i was going to get myself into. ugh fuck life. i guess we will just wait and see what happens.
This helps me believe that rock music still has a chance. Thank you to anyone whom supports this album.
Jay & I invented “planking” before it meant SH*T to anyone!!! Not to mention we took it to the next level by adding the “anti-plank”. Boom.
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Here’s a short live clip from one of my favorite shows we’ve played in 2011 so far! Peep that stick flip. ;)
I think it’s safe to say that we tore that little stage a new one this summer. So many good shows…
Photo: Kelly Mason
ok so some people don’t know this but yes I’ve had thoughts of killing myself.. well actually a lot of people didn’t know this.. it was back in 8th grade, the most stressful year of my life. i didn’t have a lot of friends and that’s when i found out one of my really good friends was dying.. it was really hard.. i was getting picked on and made fun of a lot. at the time it seemed like an easy way out. now looking back at it im so glad i didn’t do it! i know my life isn’t great but i still love it! life isn’t meant to be easy.. its full of disappointment. like i’ve said people who commit suicide are giving up, taking the easy way out.. why would you want to give up? someone hurts you, ok im sorry but guess what thats life, people are going to hurt you. it gets worse before it gets better.. and i would spit on someones grave if they did it. im not going to feel bad for you. i know i sound like a bitch but that’s how it is with me. why would you kill yourself when there are people who have it way worse? my friend Scott died, not because he killed himself, not because he wanted to, but because he was one of those people who got sick.. he didnt deserve it at all.. he was just a kid.. kids shouldn’t die or get sick. when i get really depressed sometimes i wish i could take his place because i know he’d be living his life to the fullest just because that’s the person he was, and i feel guilty that i don’t do that everyday… R.I.P. Scott!
